1:27am
The early hours of the morning strip my stronghold of unexamined bliss. It’s in these hours the true darkness comes forth, from underneath the façade of strength worn valiantly in daylight and amidst the moonlit foreboding of another twelve-hour masquerade. It’s in these hours the memories arise. Of loving someone so deeply that the pain [...]
The Well-Dressed Man
A List of What I Wish Every Man Had in His Wardrobe 1. A Fedora 2. Exceptionally well-fitting, dark-wash jeans 3. A casual blazer 4. Dark socks–the fewer the white socks in a man’s possession, the better 5. Fitted tees in dark colors 6. A black belt but not the karate kind 7. Dress shoes [...]
Unmasking My Cynicism
“You cannot protect yourself from sadness without protecting yourself from happiness.” “I think and think and think, I‘ve thought myself out of happiness one million times, but never once into it.” “I’m so afraid of losing something I love that I refuse to love anything at all.” –Jonathan Safran Foer I’ve been attempting to abandon [...]
Bitterly Beautiful
The night was mine. Fresh buds, bound like little green roses with tightly wrapped petals, sent the last of falls’ leaves tumbling to the ground. Parents and their children, pairs of friends, and couples new and old held hands as they circled Lake of the Isles. I grasped my solitude tightly, and then less so, [...]
Infatuation, Scarcity, and Selfishness
Infatuation is touted as a glorious time of discovering a person. However, I believe that infatuation involves designing a person; in essence, founding a relationship on an illusion that is destined to unwind. It is no coincidence that after three to six months, the time necessary to stop lying to ourselves about the true nature [...]
Love-Swell
I’ve recently come to the realization that the reason losing someone hurts so much isn’t the loss itself, but the inevitable love-swell that occurs. If it’s truly giving that is a greater blessing than receiving, the love we once gave freely stays with us. It begins to well up within us with each memory and [...]
EXual Relations
I guess it somewhat follows that a romance cynic would be a break-up idealist. I’ve never been one to avoid my exes or whoever else I’ve been involved with; instead, I’ve put forth a lot of effort into transitioning the relationship into a friendship. But as soon as I began thinking that perhaps it isn’t [...]